The world

I had created
came crashing down around me
when you broke through my walls with the malicious truth.
I could have lived in that illusion forever,
thinking you loved me
thinking you cared.
Somehow this bridge between us became a pitfall
and now I use my time to ignore the heat of the darkening ashes of all that I'm forced to leave behind.
A carefully crafted illusion that was lost in the magic of foreplay and fantastic sex
I thought you loved me.

How embarrassing-
I thought you loved me.

Now I'm over here
and you're right where I've left you
and I must resist temptation to find a way back over to your warm body and soft eyes

It's over
It's all over

right?

It all seems so strange

this foreign world I'm in.
faces, all so unfamiliar and similar
and words too jumbled for me to understand.
I miss the place I know
the familiar smells
and sounds

they call this


home sick.

We have arrived

upon our last moments here
green-clad
proud parents

I hope I didn't fuck up.

We begin

with a soft smile
a glance
flushed cheeks
a giggle
and your best dress.

line up your trophies
ribbons and bank notes

maybe he'll think you're best-in-show.

did you win?

It's getting dangerous

these feelings for you
that I have
welling up inside me
make me a madwoman.

my writing
is affected
my dreaming
is affected

because you are so wonderful.

I'm so happy it's disgusting.

I've noticed

All I can write about lately
is you.
and you
distract me from writing

and that's okay.

come again
soon.

please.

I've found you

And her
And us

And I'm glad.