The world

I had created
came crashing down around me
when you broke through my walls with the malicious truth.
I could have lived in that illusion forever,
thinking you loved me
thinking you cared.
Somehow this bridge between us became a pitfall
and now I use my time to ignore the heat of the darkening ashes of all that I'm forced to leave behind.
A carefully crafted illusion that was lost in the magic of foreplay and fantastic sex
I thought you loved me.

How embarrassing-
I thought you loved me.

Now I'm over here
and you're right where I've left you
and I must resist temptation to find a way back over to your warm body and soft eyes

It's over
It's all over

right?

It all seems so strange

this foreign world I'm in.
faces, all so unfamiliar and similar
and words too jumbled for me to understand.
I miss the place I know
the familiar smells
and sounds

they call this


home sick.