So that's it..

Here I stand, my heart walking defeated..
Wondering if it should tread the same path.. the same means of justification.
"Never before," it beats, "have I endured such loss."
But... nothing has changed
it is all as it was before.

Knees weak
I fall to the fates, breathless.
For, though I am certain that good things come to those who do wait--
I fear I didn't wait long enough.

As I count the casualties that are my Ego, Pride, and Dignity,
my crystalline heart looks up in wonder and exclaims to the world; with silence on my lips,
"Oh glorious day! Thou hast forsaken mine wonder."

With heavy conscience I lay to rest my broken effort
for this day is none for battle..
but an evening to grieve the loss of my will--
to travel many moons on the unmarked path,
and rejoice a morning that soon awaits
beyond the dark horizon.

Unbearable pain takes the place of my hollow in between.